a pregnancy journal of sorts: Pregnancy
I'm gonna do this a different way. My top 10 and worse 10 of pregnancy. The things I think I'll remember, but know I won't.
Ten Top Things About My Pregnancy:
10. Feeling you kick. You frequently liked to put your foot in my rib and head in my hip.
9. Having Shawn feel you kick. He was ALWAYS amazed at how much you moved. One night when he came to bed and I was fast asleep he felt my belly. The next morning he asked "How the heck can you sleep with that kid moving like that!?!?"
8. Having somewhat of an excuse to eat whatever I wanted. My faves- chick-fil-a chicken biscuits and Dunkin Donuts ice coffee. (In fact, the DD workers knew my due date and knew we didn't know the gender....they always asked how I was feeling and made me promise to bring you by after you were born!)
7. Seeing you grow and grow from the outside.
6. My OB. She's simply awesome.
5. Getting ultrasounds and hearing your heart beat. I felt I could look/listen all. DAY. long. The very first time we saw your heart flicker at the fertility doc's office your dad and I both shed a few tears (okay I shed A LOT). As we left the office your dad revealed he didn't think it would be quite as fun as it really was!
4. Swimming. I learned that the water made me feel thin :) I swam at least 1600m about twice a week until 39 weeks. Here I'll also add, so I won't forget, that I did prenatal yoga. Hilarious. But it was relaxing.
3. Seeing so many people pray for you. I'll never forget our community group baby shower. We sang some of my favorite hymns, "How Great Thou Art" and "Come Thou Fount."" Various people prayed for you and your soon entrance into the world. Another moment I felt like I could have stayed in forever. We started that group right before we started in vitro. I have no doubt that the whole group prayed for you every step of the way....and were thrilled to do so!
2. How active and great I felt. I ran (mom don't yell at me) until about 32 weeks. Of course it was slow but it was amazing how great it felt and how I was so content knowing you were gonna be taken care of, despite all the dirty looks I got at the gym and the worried folks (MOM) around me.
1. And as hard as it was, labor (what I'll blog about next). Your dad and I discuss how we could go back to that day in a millisecond. We LOVED meeting you!!!
Ten Worst Things About My Pregnancy:
10. Being jealous of those who conceive with no issue or thought and seeing them complain about pregnancy. (Please no offense to anyone specific.) I often just wished I could live so carefree- i.e. telling people when you pee on the stick, not worrying about appointments or EVEN hoping your baby truly is your baby and not a lab error! Ha ha!
9. Insomnia. Horrible insomnia.
8. Advice. Of course I'm an active facebooker and with the smallest post people LOVE to offer their advice. I imagine I do that as well. My favorite, if I posted about being busy or tired, I always got "just wait until the baby arrives." Well, duh!!
7. Showers. I LOVED them, but at the same time it's obnoxiously awkward opening gifts in front of everyone. And I worried about having baby things in our home until we actually met you. The "bag" wasn't packed and car seat put in the car until week 39. And we didn't have furniture until week 36.
6. Fear. Despite having assurance in God. I feared something would happen- never meeting you or you not being healthy. We had a few scares. I had a strange bleed at 27 weeks that landed me in the hospital. Worst experience EVER. Thank the Lord I will never have to deal with that doctor again. It was bad. Ask your dad. We also had to go to a high risk doctor for one visit due to a marker on your heart. I also had placenta previa at the beginning of my pregnancy.
5. The wait. We wanted to meet you sooooo bad. I think I looked at the calendar every day waiting for November to come.
4. Fatigue. Thankfully I didn't really have this until week 37 or 38.
3. Wanting to know so bad what labor was going to feel/be like.
2. Going past my due date. I could have put money on going past from the beginning. I just knew you wouldn't come early. Even feeling mentally prepared there is nothing like going past that day.
1. Seeing other friends struggle with infertility. It's no fun. There are no words.
Even writing this post I had to scrounge for a few "worst" things about pregnancy to total ten. Often I felt like one of those pregnant women who people want to slap. I had no swelling. I stayed active. I gained exactly what the doctor said I should gain. And I was in love with my belly. I was in love with you. I want to remember all of this because hopefully one day there will be a #2. And I'm sure it will be TOTALLY different!!
[Not to end on a depressing note but infertility is out there. I'm sure everyone knows someone who has struggled getting pregnant. I already fear I've lost my sensitivity.]